bRrr.. coldness on a sunday arvo.. my toes are frozen + i'm wearing socks -_-" wow how awesome was hillsong conference.. i managed to go to tuesday, wednesday + friday night rallies.
tues - o3.o7.o7: indescribable indeed. met up with mimi, jess + han.. great timing that my mobile battery died, but i crossed paths with mimi! thank God. we sat at door 10 or 12, nice + close to the stage. p+w was great.. love the new songs! after p+w, chris tomlin lead awesome worship.. the whole arena was packed + everyone was in worship. after that, the sermon that was spoken by louie giglio blew my mind! omgosh.. i loved physics + astronomy, but after hearing + seeing this, it made me go wow - how great is our God! He created this universe, He knows each star by name, yet here i am, so small, so tiny, worthless on a planet called earth + yet He cares for me, He loves me, He chose me.. He created the sky to be beautiful.. each photo on the screen, was so beautiful.. He is the one with creativity + beauty within.. went home with ko alex, ella, dan + den. a bit squishy yeeee.
wed - o4.o7.o7: was meant to catch the same train as rhes + ronald, but it was packed as at wynyard, so i caught the next train.. on the way, there was a delay.. and i was like oh man i'm going to miss out on the whole thing, but He made a way, and the delay was gone. then the boys asked if my train was going to stop at lidcombe coz their train didn't.. oh dear.. good one boys! anyhows got to lidcombe station, running to the next platform for my train (already late), and i hear someone calling my name + it was herman! wow! so herman gave me a lift. by the time we got there, it already started, so we ended up on the side, at the back. but that's cool, i made it. israel houghton was great.. jentezen franklin preached about the transfer zone, wow! he talked about how right now, we need to grab the baton. we need to tranfser what we have down to the next generation. we have to be careful on how we treat the "now" coz that will effect the "next". what made me cry inside was when he asked if God was to put His ear on your heart (ministry, life, work, family, etc) would He hear His son Jesus.. and i could honestly say, the heartbeat would be faint in mine.
thurs - o5.o7.o7: we got shoo-ed to leave work at 3pm.. me, toddy, vik + nicole were kidnapped by rach for the rest of the day. first stop was shangri-la hotel.. wow.. omgosh the rooms were so cool - hired to rooms that connect with each other.. and the views were great! you could see the harbour bridge, opera house + harbour. after dropping out things, we got taken to fox studios in a tarago.. and we played bowling! weeee.. how fun!! as usually i suked in the beginning, but i did ok over all.. yay! then we watched knocked up.. funny, disgusting, sweet movie. after that we went back to our hotel room, had showers - the view from the bathroom was cool.. felt like ppl were looking through haha.. then we had a team builing exercise + ordered room service.. man we ate too much as per usual.. then went to sleep.. shared my bed with nicole. omgosh, the beds are sooo comfy! i wanna take it home.. haha.
fri - o6.o7.o7: i get woken up to the sound of the phone, vik asking if i wanted to go swimming.. how can i pass on that offer. so me, vik + toddy went down for a swim at 7ish am.. felt so good after that. then we all got ready for a buffet breakie! oh yeah.. my day just gotten better.. all u can eat breakie!! weeeee.. we stayed there till 11ish + headed back to our hotel room + checked out. had great time with the girls. thanx rach!
after work, i managed to catch the right train with rhes + ronald. man how hectic was the line outside acer arena. somehow we managed to get in + bumped into jess, han + their family. so we sat together. what a great way to end hillsong conference. being in worship, being in His presence. the only vision i got that night was that i was coming down from a mountain, and below waiting were people that i knew cheering + supporting me. now i have no idea what this means.. so i'll have to keep seeking Him, to find out more. that night i jumped, i cried, i surrendered, i praised, i laughed, i thanked.. for all He has done + will do.
sat - o7.o7.o7: went to paddys with my mum as usual, then went to the city before going to church. city was packed as.. i had a look around at some clothes + shoes. and i was just sad, that what they had was the smallest size available, and i needed a smaller size. but instead of getting grumpy, i thanked Him for making me, for creating me perfect to His way. had leaders meeting later that night. ko jamz was talking about checking what we're done in the past 6 months, and will happen in the next year. i can't believe it'll be christmas again. what are my goals, what are my plans? i havent thought about it. but you know what, no matter how hard you plan something, if it's not according to His will, then you need to check your plan. i remembered what han was sharing how if certain things didnt happen, he wouldnt be at his current job. and that was like me.. if i didnt fail at uni, and didnt stay back, i wouldve had my current job. i didnt plan to fail, i planned to pass + graduate a year earlier that what happened. but instead of blaming myself + getting angry, i let it go.. rejection, after rejection.. in the end doors started to open.. after leaders meeting, me, rhes, diana + ronald went to eat at don don.. yummo! then went to rhes' place.. omgosh what is wrong with us 3 - me, den + rhes? couldnt stop laughing.. gila ya?
today we had a guest speaker from open doors. wow.. i wanted to cry in that service! here i am, complaining, whinging about my life, and yet there are people out there - my brothers + sisters that are getting persecuted for standing up in what they believe. man.. i pray that i can be that bold one day.. my heart just felt heavy when i heard how these 3 indonesian women were taken to jail coz they had muslim kids in their sunday school.. and being a sunday school teacher, i was just in pain to hear what happened to them. but you know what, through the support of prayer around the world, and through God's grace, they turned their unloving, cold prison into a loving warm environment - no matter what background/sex/belief.. i was so amazed by that.. then we saw how this little girl got shot in her leg for trying to get to church.. omgosh.. the courage + love that these kids/people have is amazing. they're the ones getting out of that boat.. they're the ones that people say they've failed.. but it's ones like me - staying in the boat that has failed.
if you read up to here.. i give you a star for reading what i have to say.